Over 200 miles of you and me on the road together. We seemed to have a lot of those kinda moments, especially towards the end. I had to admit my complete powerlessness over you in order to release your grip on my existence.
I mastered your ways, the spell you cast on others and how you grip down on people with your deceitful tricks. Because of this mastery, I’m now able to help others break loose from your chains too. I will no longer allow you to rob me of who I truly am or create unnecessary chaos in my life. I know I’m better off not associating with you whatsoever going forward and I’m thankful I finally gained the courage to stand up to you and say NO. For me, it was such a love-hate bond we had under the false pretense that I “needed” you to have fun, be social or to handle my emotions and stress. You had a way about you that made drinking seem like some kind of luxurious necessity.
You saw me have our firstborn child, then my second born…and continued to be with me all the time. I came to find you and you were there, taking away all of my worries and concerns. Actually going through the physical process of writing a letter, or writing in general may not ‘be your thing’, or even trying it just might not have a desired effect. I know who I am, what I like, what I need and how I want to live my life. I no longer feel weighed down by you and have since found clarity and purpose.

I want to thank all of you to have made this such an enriching experience for me. However, retiring from the job does not mean I will not be your teacher anymore. As a teacher, I am always available to my students. Wishing you all great happiness and success in your future. I honestly thought that you were my friend, and a good one to have.
But as I bear witness to you ripping through the lives of my friends, my family members, and my patients, I find it nearly impossible to surrender again. You would think I would have accepted this by now—that you want goodbye to alcohol letter us dead—after battling with you my entire life. You would think I would stop being surprised as I hear about overdose after overdose… countless lives that you’ve taken hostage and pursued until the gates of death.
In our episode entitled I is for It’s so hard to say goodbye to alcohol we did just that. One of the hardest things in this life is to say goodbye, especially to someone so special to you. We both knew for some time this day was coming, and I will be leaving to pursue my college degree. Still, when this day has finally come, I am unable to gather the strength to say goodbye to you. Therefore I am writing this letter to you, wishing you goodbye because I want to say this when I have a chance to.